churin

i think one of the things that triggers my anxiety is the fact that my brain focuses so much on the future and the potential bad things that could happen. it like obsesses over it to the point that i struggle with distracting myself, or even focusing on hobbies. i've tried mindfulness meditation, but my adhd is awful and is always making my mind run at 90mph @ _@ i'm not sure what else to do

the other thing that triggers my anxiety is no doubt work. i'm not a fan of my job and also some of the co-workers there treat me like garbage (complaining to supervisors and HR did nothing ofc)

my anxiety has been pretty bad as of late. my brain is ALWAYS trying to find something to get anxious over and i'm soooo tired of it >_> breathing techniques kinda work, but mindfulness is near impossible for my adhd brain.

hell yeah work went well and i have the next two days off! i'm just gonna take it easy and relax at home =w=

hope everyone's week is going well too!!

work was a real doozy today...well i'm home now, so i guess i'll try and relax while i play some cookie run kingdom (one of my besties got me re-addicted to the game. it's been a couple or so years since i last played though, so there's a LOT of changes i'm unfamiliar with! regardless, i'm still having a blast~)

whew, today was a long day. accidentally drove to work an hour early, then work itself was verrry slow and boring. but i'm home now and ready to eat some pasta! (also have tomorrow off work so that's a huge YIPPEE from me!!)

(flops on the floor and falls asleep)

 omggg ellipsus is a godsend for writing!! it's actually helping me write more again <3

I miss writing fanfiction...i've been suffering from writer's block for years now and I'm not sure how to break it _@ I've also been getting art block. both are probably due to depression I bet.

back when I used LJ I would always post writing, art and other edits I would make. I miss when i had the spoons to do all that. maybe using dreamwidth will motivate me to do all that again~

naps are nice~

it's early in the morning and my day off work. i can't wait to relax and do a whole lotta nothing~ (well i have a physical therapy appointment later but other than that i'm free)